Tuesday, August 31, 2010

A reply

27 August 2010 has passed.
Who ever think that I am okay, is wrong in that sense.
I would be lying if I don't feel anything on the 27th of August.
I had a plan which I made much earlier.
I had it all in my organizer.
The truth is, I never left.
But I never showed myself either.

If you think I don't know what's going on, you're wrong.
I've been following you.
But I don't show myself.
Because some people are not happy with my decision or not even happy with me.
People asked me questions where I can't answer it honestly.

If your're reading you'll be confused because the post is hanging here for now.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Tittt... Tittt.. Tttttttttt~~~

That's the sound of the machine attached to a human body which indicates that that person is dead.
I feel dead now... Half body paralyzed.

I guess there's no point of being sad.
Everything is over now.
It was my fault for not taking good care of what I have.
Regardless of how my way is, I failed to deliver.

Chances were given, but I didn't take it or did not do well.
I hope this will be a lesson to me to be a better person in the future.
Thank you for everything I've had before.
Thank you for all the teaching and guidance and the support and especially for the love which I will never find in anyone else.

There is no point of me begging now because the door is closed.
I should have done that earlier.
Everyone have their own limit. You have reached yours.
I tried to change myself for the better me for you.
But you could not wait.
I have done something really bad that made you feel depreciated.

Even though I have seen this one coming, I tried to ignore it and try to keep up with it.
But at last, I fell.
I quote a malay saying "sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua)
I have had my time, I have had my chance, but I screwed it.

Maybe I am not the best for you. Maybe I am not the one for you.
But whatever it is, I have always respected you and loved you.
In case you have forgotten, I don't really open myself to people.
People who think they know me well actually do not know me that well.
No one will, not even me. Only God knows.

I dedicate this to someone very special to my life. Who brought a new horizon into my life.
Who cherished every moments with me, who loved me so deeply,
but has now gone.

Goodbye, Thank you, and sorry.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


Hooorayy hooraayy its holi holidayyy!

Hmmmm semester break has started..
But I am not excited at all..
Probably because I am eager and excited and nervous to know what my result is..
Many have said that I've graduated.. Not yet... Result is not out yet...

I have no plan for this holiday... However I wish to go for a vacation(s)..
To my fellow friends out there, if you are holiday-ing, enjoy your holiday!
But do take care of yourself! Don't get over excited..

As of now I'm just going to stay at home helping out my mum.. :)

Till next time, toodles~~

Thursday, May 6, 2010


Wowwww lamenye tak menaip di sini...

I'll be back after my exam is overrrr... :)