Who would have thought that 2 years of pre-school, 6 years of primary, 5 years of secondary, 5 years of tertiary studies have past.
It all contributed to what I am now. I'm a legal practitioner! Everyday I look at my own reflection, I am now working. No more fun times. Not to say no more fun, but not much of fooling around now.
However being a career person is not as fun as it may sound like. Not as cool as it may seem. You carry a responsibility in whatever career you are in. You like it or not, you choose to be at where you are now. You just have to challenge yourself a bit harder, to be able to survive.
At this juncture, if you follow your heart, you won't go far. You follow your mind. Take the challenges as a teacher/lecturer. Only experience will make you a better person.
I am determined, to push myself as hard as I can so that I can be a better person. I also hope that I can balance my personal life and my working life.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Officially not single!
I made this shoutout at twitter yesterday and it seems that some of them actually paid attention to what I twitted.
Well, I think technically it's true.. I am not single. It's just that I'm in a long distance relationship with a girl, but she's in my future and I have not met her yet.
Whoever that girl is, I only one thing. Can accept me for who I am, and I can accept her. I find it hard when I cannot accept the girls's personality and neither can she. End up not seeing anyone, or even If I met someone, dare not go further.
Probably in my mind, I am not ready because I want to stabilise and have a solid financial first.
Whatever it is, deep inside, yeah I do feel lonely and I wish I could meet my future partner earlier.
But what my heart wants does not always mean its what I need now. Allah knows best. I leave it to Him. Insyaallah.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
It has always been like that. Always want to be so "hardworking".
The thing is, I probably don't know how to chill and to take things easy.
Relax Nabil. you can advise people, but why can't you apply them to yourself?
Work will never end. You just need to know when to have fun and when to do work.
Alhamdulillah this week is slightly better than last week. Hopefully things will be better and better in the future.
To my friends out there, don't give up okay. I know you can do it. Don't give up until you have exhausted all your effort.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Time: 5.30pm till late.
It is always in my schedule to spend some of my weekends/holiday to hang with my group of 5.
Normally we will go for lunch/dinner or movies, or karaoke, or anything we can possibly think of.
We even went up to Genting just to eat "cold burgers". That's how random we can be.
We are a bunch of people who are very stressful at work. We work till late night. We work in the weekend. However, we still find time to hang out, to forget about the work stress for a while.
So what happened on this date?
Well, this is a new thing in our schedule. We cooked, we swim, we eat, and we spend the rest of the day watching TV together.
Do you know that this is one of the best moment you can have with your friends?
The experience of cooking together when majority of us don't really go to kitchen to cook? I say this is legend- wait for it - dary...It was an awesome moment.
Yesterday was western. Next we will think of cooking something else.
To the house owner, thanks for allowing your house to be used. To the rest, thanks for making our day a great one with all our craps in preparing the food.
Looking forward for another one to come back from UK, or probably we will go there and do the same thing there, whichever God permits.
I love you guys!
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Breathe in Breathe out....
First week of 2012 and I am already this stressful? That is not a good sign, is it?
Well, spoke to my friends about it... Told them that I cannot take it anymore.
Prior to this, spoken to parents also. They were not that keen to allow me to stop.
But you know what's the best thing of having these 2 groups of people I love so much, around me?
They managed to convince me to stay.
Alhamdulillah, now I have the strength to go on. This is just another test. That is what I will keep telling myself.
I'm still new. How to expect myself to know a lot? I will buck up that is for sure. I will work harder. I will have aims to keep me going.
You know why? Because Nabil Nazrin do not give up that easy until he really cannot go on with it.
Thanks to my friends and my family for all your support.
p/s - look for friends who will be with you through thick and thin and not only when you are at the top.
A friend of mine once burst out to me his problem that he has been holding on to for a long time.
About love relationship.
I do not understand why do people get involved in a love relationship and not wanting to take the risk of it being ended just like that for whatever reason?
I am not saying that it's good, but come on guys, that's the risk you must take. When you do a business you cannot always think of profit without anticipating the loss. That's not how life is.
If you are in a happy relationship, congratulations. If along the way you got into arguments and fights, be careful. And if the relationship ended, learn from it.
But I don't think that's the case for the ending part, in general norm. Whenever they come to that part, they always like to blame the other side, and vice versa. Come on.... Don't be childish.
I know what a heartbreak is because I've been through it before. So don't give me grandmother story about me not understanding how it feels like. Things had happen. You had the chance to work it out, but you didn't do enough, so it ended.
Stop having this attitude of blaming others when you are into troubles. Look at yourself in the mirror. Are you completely sure that you did not do anything contributing to it? Are you sure you have all the while been all perfectly okay? If you are, then you must be the God.
Learn to give and take. Learn to check for our mistakes too. And most importantly, if the relationship ended, pray for the best of your ex-partner. There is no point of you spreading untrue statements and stories just to make the other person look bad. What do you get from that? If you say that person is stupid or bad, you are double stupid and double bad because you were with that person. Don't you think so? I believe many of you did not think of this before you do what you did.
And the friends. Come on. Stop being a "batu api". It was not you who were in the relationship. Yes you care about your friend and stuff but what right do you have to say bad things about other person when that person in the first place did not even disturb you? If you are a true friend, you would support your friend by encouraging them to get over it and move on. If what you do as a friend is to spread rumours and make the other party look xtremely bad, and you even curse the other party, don't bother calling yourself a good friend.
You do that because it has yet to hit you in your face. Life is a karma. Things work like a boomerang. You throw it, it will come back to you. Life is fair. God is fair. You do good deed you are rewarded with good things, and it applies also negatively.
So please guys. Stop talking about other people unless and until you get the information first-hand. If you hear it from someone else, always remember, there is always two side of the story (if its between 2 parties).
When is this drama ever going to stop? Seriously, what do you get by talking bad about people. If you are the one affected, I can still understand. If you were not even involved in it, why act smart and tell the whole world that someone is bad?
If you are a true kind hearted human being, you would pray for the best for that person. Especially is you are a muslim. I'm not familiar with other religions, so pardon me. Our religion taught us to always be nice to people. Our religion forbids war except if it is to uphold the religion. Our religion discourage badly on divorces. And definitely our religion forbid us from talking bad about others. We should forgive each other. If our Prophet can do it, why can't we? We all love him, don't we? Why can't we follow some of his teachings, if not all?
Ponder about this to those who ever going to read this.
Day in day out we can see people jumping ship from one company to another, or from one profession to another.
Some of us might wonder why do these people do such things. For some, they know why.
It's the same as you buying something you do not like, but you just buy it because you need it. For example, you want to buy a VW Polo GTI. But because you need a car now, you can probably afford only a Perodua Myvi. You will still use the Myvi but you always want a Polo. How you take care of your Myvi is different from how you would take care of the Polo.
Its all about passion. We can see nowadays its a trend that you study something else, and work in a different field altogether. You study law but you want to become an interior designer, or you studied law but you like event management.
As for myself, my passion is to do event management, but I'm a law graduate. I am only a few months away from completing my pupillage program. I've been making deep thinking about my future on where should I go.
I have decided to stay in legal field and pursue my dream in event management later. The problem with this is, I will not enjoy my work if I do not have the passion to practise. To make it worse, I am in the area that I am not familiar with at all.
But I cannot simply leave. I am already in a well established firm. To get in is difficult, but I just want to walk off just like that. I do not think it is a wise idea to do so. So I decided to stay for another year at least. From there, I will see how things are.
Probably I will need to equip myself with interesting information and knowledge on this area I am pracitising to keep me going. I think my problem is that I have been influencing myself that I cannot do it. Actually, I know I can. I just need to work a little bit harder, for me to get the passion.
I know where my weaknesses are, and I am going to overcome them. I need strength and time to do it. God, please help me with this.
I am still not putting aside my passion to do event management. Furthermore, I think I have found a new passion that can make me stay in practice. I want to help the society by providing legal aid. I want to do that, and I will find way to do that.
So guys, if you think you do not like what you are doing, think again. You can always make it better. You can create your passion, but you do not get the opportunities that often. Think wise before you do anything.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
What do we know about relationships?
Family relationship? Friendship? Love relationship? relations between 2 ships?
Those who are married or in a very strong and steady relationship will understand this better.
I certainly have not master the art of relationship as I am still learning about it.
This is just my thought, so please do not ever quote me if you disagree with me.
I always like to talk about love relationships first as this involves only 2 persons.
I've been through a few relationships (again I am saying that I do not simply change subject as I please. I have reasons for that and not many are aware of the reasons and do not intend to make it public)
I also observe others' relationships. It's interesting and funny at times, but can also get nasty when you think about relationships.
Some can handle it well, the rest generally cannot. It's always easier said than done, that's a fact.
When you say you love a person, do you really love a person?
Let me give you an example. You are in a relationship. 1 day you got into an argument with your partner. You could not agree with your partner. You then became a newscaster and inform the whole world that you have that problem.
Third party hearing your story might not get the correct version of the story, and even if they did, the news will spread and a different version might be created.
If you really love a person, you solve your problem internally. Speak to your partner properly. You do not go and ask for opinions and worst still, you rely on that opinion. You ask for opinion merely to guide you. Some of the opinion is not applicable to you at all.
Remember that it is you who is in the relationship, not your friends.
Why am I saying this is because I've heard a few that relied solely on their friends' advices without thinking of the applicability. It's the same as you wanting to buy something, but there's no perfect size for you but you still buy it because the salesperson managed to convince you. You go back home and realise, not only the stuff is not nice, and it doesn't even fit you. End up you wasted your money.
Coming back to relationships. Be confident to your decisions. It may be wrong to the eyes of public but deep in yourself, you know why you make such decision. You can get advice from others, but take it only to a point it can fit your situation.
You will be proud if you make your own decision, rather than you rely on someone else's decision.
That is why the malay sayings said ukur baju di badan sendiri and not someone else's body.
And you do not need to tell the whole world through twitter, facebook, etc etc that you are having a problem with your partner. This is so because more often than not, people are easily influenced by one side of story. It is unfair for your partner because your friends listening to you only heard the half part of the story. They have not heard of the other half.
So to friends out there, (now this is in friendship topic), if you really appreciate friendships, be a good friend and listen or at least anticipate the other side of the story as well before you say anything.
I'm sleepy now so I'm going to stop here. This is just the beginning. :D
It's been quite a while since I last write something here...
Anyhow, so here I am, after the 5 years of studying law, now at the final stage of being a law student.
Reading in Chambers of SLB now.. 3 more months to go. Can't wait!
However, I am not enjoying doing what I'm doing.
Kept thinking why can't I enjoy what I'm doing. I mean the pay is going to be reasonable, its a good profession, in a good firm. But haihhh... Every day I feel like leaving practise.
Well It could be because I did not make it interesting because I do not want to make myself to understand the subject.
Also it might be because I am too slow. But whatever it is, I am still not enjoying it.
Above all, I know for sure that I will not leave the firm that soon. I just need some courage and something to cheer me up and keep me going.
So far I see nothing interesting in SLB. Just files, papers, work work work. How can it be any more interesting than that?
Oh well, enough said for a refreshment then. Will come back here once in a blue moon.